Last Friday, I posted this letter to The Real Husband. He must have absorbed it through some kind of brain-to-brain, computer generated osmosis because that same day, I came home to a clean house. Throughout the weekend, he was helpful and more involved. In all honesty, I was a little taken aback. Of course, I was happy, but I wondered about his sudden change.
I had my answer a few days later. He told me he realized what an ass he’s been. He said he finally wants to be a more involved husband and dad. I listened patiently. I tried my darndest not to yell, “What the fuck took so long!”
This happened the same day I decided to log off Facebook for a few days in an effort to regain some clarity on where my priorities lie. I needed to put some things into perspective. On top of Real Husband’s desire to be more present, he poured out his heart to me and let me know some things he’d been going through.
I won’t go into detail because it is a far too private matter. Maybe in five years I’ll be able to blog about, but for now I cannot divulge our problems. Just know they are real and tough. I wish I had something funny to say about it. At least I’d know it wasn’t so serious then.
Real Husband and I have only been married close to four years. That’s not a long time at all. We are still learning and growing as a married couple. It’s a little tougher since I had Real Boy when we first started dating and he’d never had children. Then I was pregnant with Real Girl about a year into our relationship and BOOM! More major life changes. I’m pretty sure he was scared shitless.
So we are moving forward as a team. I cannot imagine my life without him in it. I don’t like that feeling of being out of control about how I feel about him. There have been days when I think I can’t be with him anymore. However, my heart won’t let me do it. Barring physical abuse or adultery, I’m in this shit to win it!
I’m sticking with this son-of-bitch whether he likes it or not. After all, it’s hard to be with someone as egotistical as me.I'll be in back in full blown Facebook mode Monday. 'Til then, keep it classy Real Peeps.